All that we see or seem

Not Enough

2006-10-06T04:05:45Z

Title: Not enough
Fandom: Simple Plan
Pairing: Seb/Pierre
Rating: Family
Warnings: Boylove
DISCLAIMER: Don't know don't own.
Note: Inspired by Carrie's post of the lyrics below in my idea thread. I tried to make it non SP related but it morphed into this.
Lyrics: Mest - Drawing Board

I spent days and nights in my bedroom
Trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
Write a song a day but ~~she~~ he won't like it anyway
Back to the drawing board
With the words you've heard a million times before

You sigh as you throw your notebook across your bedroom. For the past week you've spent all your free time in there trying to write the perfect song to show him how much he means to you. Even though you've literally written a song a day none of them are good enough to even show to him. How could you really expect them to be though? He was one of the major songwriters for your band and you're just Sebastien, the quiet rhythm guitarist.

In frustration you burry your head in your pillow and scream.

"Go away, David." You say into the pillow as you feel the mattress sink beneath you

"Not going to happen." he says as he just sits on the bed looking down at you "What's wrong Sebas?"

You sit up and glare at your friend as you say "What's wrong? David, you know what's wrong so why are you asking?"

"Why don't you forget writing the song and just tell him?" he asks you as he shakes his head

"It's not enough." you reply as you watch him get up and walk over to pick up your notebook

"It should be enough." he whispers as he sits the notebook down beside you and walks out of the room

You just sigh as you look through the song's you've written. Everyone says the same thing that he hears from millions of fans everyday, the thing you can't bring yourself to tell him. Four little words that could ruin everything you've worked so hard for.

"Oh well back to the drawing board". You say to yourself as you look down at the song you'd been working on earlier

It was simply titled 'Pierre, I love you'.

Photographs and Memories

2006-10-06T03:59:26Z

Title: Photographs and Memories
Author: Micki ((day_is_gone))
Paring: Brendon // David Desrosiers (Simple Plan) Mentioned: Ry/Spence, Brent/Jon
Rating: PG
Word count: 865 without the lyrics at the top
POV: Third person
Summary: All Brendon has left of his boyfriend are Pictures and Memories
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the boys, or bands mentioned in this story, Nor am I trying to spred rumors about them. I also don't own the song that inspired this "Fotos y Recuerdos"
Author Notes: I wrote this for the 3rd slash at the disco writing contest, Don't ask about the paring for some reason I felt the urge to write Brendon/David slash, and I also had the urge to kill off a character. This is my first Panic! Slash sorry if the guys are out of character. E-cookies for anyone who knows who sings "Fotos y Recuerdos". Standalone
"I have a picture of you that I kiss every night before going to bed Its kind of torn and its already starting to fade For all the tears I've been crying over it Its all that I have left of our love only pictures and memories I have a memory of you that always makes me so happy of that party where I met you and that shy kiss that I gave you it's all that I have left of our love only pictures and memories"

"Brendon come on get out of bed," Spencer yelled through the door at his room mate, "or at least make a sound so I know your alive."

Spencer sighed as he heard a shoe hit the door. Brendon was still alive but not willing to get out of bed, or even open the door.

"Come on Bren, I know you loved him but this isn't healthy." He paused hoping Brendon would at least yell at him that he didn't know anything but it never happened.
Spencer closed his eyes and rubbed his temples trying to think of a way to get Brendon out of the room. Keeping his eyes closed he leaned back against Brendon's door before slowly sliding down to the floor, as he himself started to cry.

"I know you miss him Bren, but killing yourself isn't going to bring him back. Think about it, is this how he would want you to mourn him? By locking yourself in your bedroom, refusing to eat, shutting all the people who love you out of your life when all we want is to comfort you?" He asked through his tears
He leaned his head back against the door as he wiped the tears out of his eyes. He really was worried about his friend, it had been two weeks since Brendon had come out of his room, or even talked to him. His worry increased every day as Brendon ate less and less of the food Spencer left outside his bedroom door for him.

Spencer could still remember that day that Brendon's world had been destroyed, and he doubted he would ever forget it. He had been at his boyfriend Ryan's house for a "song writing session" for their band, yes every time he thought about it he did the air quotes in his mind around song writing session, during this ~~make out~~ session they had left the TV on. He was working on taking off Ryan's too tight girl pants, when he heard the news guy on MTV say "Simple Plan bassist David Desrosiers, died tragically today.." he didn't hear the rest, out of shock and the fact that Ryan was on the floor whining about being shoved off of Spence's lap onto the hard floor.

He slowly opened his eyes trying to pull himself from his memories. He had left right away muttering something to Ryan about Brendon needing him. He muttered the same thing four days later when his other band mate Jon called to remind him of the tour they were supposed to leave for the next day. He knew none of his band mates were happy with him, or at least that's what got from the sounds of them yelling in the background as Jon tried to talk him into going on the tour and Jon's tone. None of them liked Brendon much, a fact they made clear when he auditioned for the band and even though he sounded good, Brent rudely called him talent less. Finally after three hours on the phone his band mates, which were his boyfriend Ryan, Ryan's friend Brent and Brent's boyfriend Jon, gave up and decided to get a temp drummer for the tour.

He refused to go on the tour since he had such a close friendship with Brendon, but now it seemed like he only had a good friendship going with Brendon's door, since he spent hours everyday just sitting there talking to it hoping he'd say something that would make Brendon snap out of it and at least unlock the door.

"Did you know they're holding a memorial service for him tonight?" He asked "Sebastien called and told me about it this morning, I already knew though since it's been all over MTV all day, anyway he asked me if I thought you would go to it. I told him I didn't know since you haven't left your room since you found out."

"He sounded bum..." He started to say but was cut off by Brendon opening the door, and falling back into Brendon's room.

Brendon didn't say anything he just looked down at his friend, telling his friend on the floor that he would in fact be going to the memorial service with just a look.

When they had arrived each of David's band mates hugged Brendon, but Brendon didn't say a word. Towards the end he shocked everyone by standing up and saying with a shaking voice.

"When I met David at the after party for the concert his band had done with my friend Spencer's band, I fell in love with him. I told him how I felt through a shy kiss on the cheek hoping that he would understand, and he did. That was a year ago and we've been together ever since. We used to spend our nights just laying in bed talking about whatever came to our minds and just holding each other, now I spend my nights crying over a torn and faded picture of him. I'm okay with that though, since I know that as long as any of us have the pictures and memories of him he will live on through us."

Beware the Banshee

2006-10-03T01:58:14Z

Title: Beware the Banshee
Rating: Pg-13
Paring: P/S
Disclaimer: Don’t own or know
Notes: this started out to be for a fall out boy challenge but since I can’t get myself to write fall out boy fics it turned into Simple Plan. For those who don’t know what a banshee is check out wikipedia

It was a quiet night in the Simple Plan house. Chuck, Pierre, David and Jeff had gone off to a party, but Patrick had stayed behind to spend time with Sebastien. That night was going to be the night the night that Patrick would tell Sebastien how he felt about him. Pat had no such luck though as soon as the boys had left Seb had gone up to his room claiming to be tired. So that left Patrick downstairs all alone passing out treats to the trick-or-treaters.

He let out a sigh as he heard the door bell ring signaling that more bratty little kids where out there wanting the candy. Grudgingly he picked up the bowl and walked to the door forcing a smile as he opened it.

“Trick or Treat!” the kids yelled simultaneously as they held out their bags

‘Look more Pirates. Thank you Johnny Depp.’ Patrick thought as he looked down at the little kids.

“What nice pirate costumes you have.” he told the kids as he gave them each a handful of the candy.

“I’m not just a pirate.” one of the little boy huffed as Patrick dropped the candy into his bag “I’m Captain Jack Sparrow.”

‘Sure you are, and I’m a fairy princess.’ Patrick thought as he watched the adults lead the children to the next house.

“Opps, out of candy.” he said to himself after he had closed the door, “Oh well, I’m sure David has more anyway.”

He snickered as he thought of how his friend would react to coming home and finding that his precious candy stash had all been given away to the neighborhood children.

‘That’s what he gets for breaking my camera.’ Patrick though as he set the bowl down on the coffee table and sank down into the couch

--
“What is that awful noise?” he asked himself as he tried to rub the sleep out of his eyes it sounded like a person wailing as they sang.

‘David must be listening to Ashlee Simpson again.’ he thought to himself with a laugh as he got up off the couch.

He rolled his eyes as he walked upstairs and stopped in front of David’s door.

“Come on Dave, you’ll wake up Sebby if you don’t turn it off.” he said as he opened the door to find the room empty and quiet.

‘I’m hearing things, living with these guys has finally caused me to loose my mind.’ he thought as he walked back down the stairs

As he walked back into the living room he happened to look out the window.

“What the hell!” he exclaimed loudly as he rubbed his eyes

He couldn’t be seeing what he was seeing, there was no possible way that there could be headless horses pulling a carriage behind them up the drive, as the wailing continued.

As he stood there watching the horses stopped and a coffin was clearly visible inside the carriage. Patrick stood there in shock as he stared helplessly at the coffin, after a couple seconds he started laughing, this had to be a prank.

“Is this the best you can do?” he asked out loud as he walked out the door and towards the carriage “Come on guys I’m not scared.”

‘Wait, none of the guys could pull this off.’ he thought to himself as he looked closely at the horses.

“This seems familiar.” he said out loud as he tried to remember

He paled as he remembered where he’d heard it, during a trip to Ireland with the boys an old crazy lady had told him a story about a Banshee who’s appearance meant death for a loved one and whom was sometimes accompanied by a black carriage pulled by headless horses.

“Sebastien!” he yelled as he turned and ran back into the house and up the stairs

‘He’ll be fine and we’ll laugh about this.’ Patrick kept repeating in his mind as he quickly opened the door to Seb’s room

He smiled as he saw his friend all tucked in fast asleep.

‘He’s so angelic looking when he’s asleep’ he thought as he walked over to the bed and bent down kissing his friend lightly on the forehead

He smile fell as he realized his friend wasn’t breathing, quickly he reached out to see if his friend had a pulse.

“NO!” he screamed as he realized Seb was dead

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“No!” Patrick screamed

“Pat come on wake up. You‘re screaming loud enough to wake the dead” Seb said as he gently shook his husband

“Sebby, is that really you.” Pat asked as he looked up at his soul mate

“No it’s Jeff in a Sebastien mask, of course it’s me.” Sebastien replied sarcastically

“I dreamt you were dead, it was so freaky. I heard a Banshee sing and everything.” Patrick said with a laugh

“If I were dead could I do this?” Sebastien asked as he leaned down and kissed Patrick on the lips
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“Who‘s Sebastien” the nurse said asked the doctor as they watched the man inside the room talk to himself

“After the murders our reality became too much for him, so he created a new reality inside his head. In that reality he is married to a man named Sebastien who is a part of a band with some of their other friends.” the doctor replied sadly

“Is there anything we can do for him, Doctor Comeau?” the nurse asked

“No, Nurse Bouvier there’s nothing we can do. We’ve tried several times and failed, only Patrick save himself now.”

Unfaithful: ITunes Challenge Fic 1

2006-06-28T05:29:46Z

Story Title: Unfaithful
Paring: Sebastien/David, Sebastien/???
Fandom: Simple Plan
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: Not real don’t own them or the song or Rihanna. As far as I know this never happened
Challenge: put itunes on random and write a fic for the first 5 song's it plays.
Song: Unfaithful (Rihanna)

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

“Where are you going baby?” He asks me as I walk towards the front door to our apartment.

“I’m just going to go hang out with the guys for awhile.” I reply as I stop and look at him

“Will you be gone all night again?” he asks reluctantly

“I’ll be back before you notice I’m gone.” I lie as I kiss his cheek

I turn quickly and walk towards the door not wanting to see the pain I know is there. I know he knows I’m lying but neither of us say’s anything about it.

“You’re killing him and you don’t even care.” my mind screams at me as I close the door

“I do care, this is the last time.” I respond in my head

“I’ve heard that before.” the voice in my head says.

I shake my head as I climb into the car, I do love David with all my heart I just can’t seem to stay faithful to him. Even though I know that he dies a little on the inside every time I walk out the door and lie to him

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I pull myself out of my thoughts as I walk up to the familiar house and knock on the door.

“I knew you’d come back.” Pierre says with a smirk as he opens the door

“This is the last time Pierre.” I say even though we both know that I’ll be back tomorrow

“You say that every time.” Pierre points out as he pulls me inside and pushes me up against the door

“I love him.” I whisper as he pressed his lips roughly against mine and forces his tongue down my throat

As he reaches down and unzips my pants my phone vibrates letting me know I have a new call. I ignore it as he finishes undressing me and carries me into his bedroom.

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David sighs as the phone sends him to voice mail.

“I can’t take this anymore, goodbye Sebastien.” He says then hangs up knowing he’ll have time to gather what he needs and leave before Seb gets back

New journal

2006-06-10T00:06:16Z

New private journal day_is_gone added it if you want, since this one will now only be used for my stories

Forbidden Love: Chapter 10/Epilogue + New Story preview

2006-04-19T01:11:29Z

Story Title: Forbidden love
Chapter Number: 10/10
Past Chapters: Here
Pairing: D/S
Fandom: Simple Plan
Warnings: Slash
Rating: PG-13 just to be safe
Disclaimer: Au means it didn't happen and since it's against the law to own people I don't own them
Dedication: To anyone who read and reviwed
Note: Final chapter thanks to everyone who read and reviewed. Sorry it's kind of short. Attached is a sneak preview of another story I’m working on

Forbidden Love Chapter: 10
P.O.V: Seb

I roll my eyes and let my mind wonder as Elizabeth continues to complain about god only knows what.

“Lesson learned, next time blow off the annoying friend and spend the whole day with your hot boyfriend.” I say inside my head

“Hey there’s my hot boyfriend now.” I add as I look up and see David walk into the food court with Chuck and Pierre.

“My boyfriend” I repeat in my head as I smile, or at least I thought it was in my head

“Your boyfriend?” Elizabeth repeats,

“You’re a fag?” She asks loudly

I don’t answer I just grab my keys and run out of the food court ignoring the people starring at me, and David calling after me to stop as he tries to catch up with me. Once I’m outside, I stop and turn around and look at him as I feel the tears forming in my eyes.

“It’s all over David, she’ll tell my parents and they’ll make me go live with my grandmother and I’ll never see you again.” I say as the tears start to fall from my eyes and he wraps his arms around me.

“Calm down, Sebby it’ll be okay.” he says trying to get me to calm down

“I won’t let them do that to us. We can run away and get our own place together. Somewhere where they don‘t know anything about us and don‘t care that we‘re two guys in love.” he ads starting to ramble

I wipe my eyes as I look up into his “Let’s do it.”

Forbidden Love: Epilogue
Note: Set a couple years into the future

“I know I hurt you guys by taking off like I did but I knew you wouldn’t understand.” I say as the tears start to fall from my eyes

“You proved to me that you didn’t approve when you refused to show up to our wedding or even come and meet your granddaughter when we adopted Christina. I know you did those things to make me regret being with David but you failed. I only regret that Christina never got to know you, you would have loved her. She‘s 5 now, and she‘s been asking about you.” I say as David wraps his arms around me from behind

We both stand there in silence as Christina lays the wild flowers she’d picked on my parents grave.

Sanctuary: Preview
Rated V for Vampire
Paring: Seb/?

Valentine’s day, oh how you hate this day more then the others. There was a time when Valentine’s day would bring you happiness, but now all it’s bringing is pain and depression. All of the happy couples you saw as you walked made it worse. They made you think back to a time when you were happy and in love just like them. As the memories fill your mind you look down at the sidewalk, thinking that just maybe it wouldn’t be so bad if you didn’t see the happy people. Maybe you can even pretend that you weren’t bitter and lonely. You’re pulled out of your thoughts as you bump into someone. You lift your eyes to apologize, but instead as soon as your eyes meet his blue ones you just stare

“Sebastien?” You whisper as you watch the man walk away.

Forbidden Love Chapter 9

2006-04-18T05:04:25Z

Story Title: Forbidden love
Chapter Number: 9/10
Past Chapters: Here
Pairing: D/S
Fandom: Simple Plan
Warnings: Slash
Rating: PG-13 just to be safe
Disclaimer: Au means it didn't happen and since it's against the law to own people I don't own them
Dedication: quitedead, pierreis_sex, aliciabouvier, hazenst___, kissxxkill, locked_inmyhead, asiansays, babybrat82389
Note: -points to chapter number- final chapter coming tomorrow

Forbidden Love Chapter 9
P.O.V: Seb

“David is kissing me and I’m kissing him back” the voice in my head is screaming

We’re in his room kissing with the door open so anyone who walks by can see us.

“That’s bad” the voice reminds me

He looks at me with a confused look on his face as I push him away.

“We could have gotten caught.” I explain as I bend down and pick up the laundry basket

“So if we hide it will you be my boyfriend?” he asked as he watched me.

I bite my lip as I look at him completely prepared to say no but instead I say “Yes.”

He grins as he leans forward and places a quick soft kiss on my forehead.

“You’d better go before your mother starts searching for you.” he says

I kiss him quickly before turning and walking out of the room with his laundry. As I walk to the laundry room my mind wonders to David, my boyfriend. Just thinking about it makes me smile, I have a boyfriend.

“You do until your parents find out.” the voice in my head says

No I’m not going think about that, I have a boyfriend everything is perfect right now. Too late the thought is already in my head, and I’m imagining how my parents will react. I sigh as I check my watch, oh well no time to think about that right now I’m going to be late if I don’t leave now.

As I walk through the kitchen I stop the read the note my mother left me on the refrigerator.

Sebastien,
Your father and I went to the cabin to get it ready. Enjoy your day off and we’ll see you tonight when we come back.

Love always, Mom

I bite my lip as I look at the note, my parents aren’t home and neither are David’s. Should I blow Elizabeth off and just spend the whole day here with David?

“She’ll come looking for you if you do that.” the voice in my head says.

I sigh again as I walk to my room and grab my jacket and car keys. Just as I come out of my room I hear the door bell ring.

“That’s probably her right now.” I say to myself as I walk to the door and open it

“Hey Sebastien, is David up?” Chuck asks as he smiles at me.

“He was, but he might have gone back to sleep. He’s in his room though.” I reply

Chuck nods and walks into the house with Pierre as I walk out.

Forbidden Love 8

2006-03-28T01:43:33Z

Story Title: Forbidden love
Chapter Number: 8
Past Chapters: Here
Pairing: D/S
Fandom: Simple Plan
Warnings: Slash
Rating: PG-13 just to be safe
Disclaimer: Au means it didn't happen and since it's against the law to own people I don't own them
Dedication: hazenst___, kissxxkill, babybrat82389, panic_its_jamie, locked_inmyhead, quitedead, pierreis_sex, meh_ness

Forbidden Love: Chapter 8
Point Of View: David

“You weren’t supposed to know it was me.” he mumbles as he sits on my bed and putting his head in his hands

“Sebby what’s wrong?” I ask sitting beside him

“Everything.” he replied somberly

“I’m sure it’s nothing we can’t handle together.” I say with a sigh as I rub his back

He raises his head and stares at me like I’ve grown a third head.

“You don’t get it do you? We won’t handle anything together because we aren’t and we never will be together.” he asks angrily

I sit there and stare back at him feeling my heart break. No he can’t do this, he can’t get my hopes up then dash them like that. It’s not right it’s not fair.

“Why?” I ask trying to keep the heartbreak I’m feeling out of my voice

“I’m not… I mean you’re not gay.” he replies nervously

As soon as he says that I start laughing hysterically, which causes him to sate at me again.

“What’s so funny?” he demands to know

“You and you’re denial.” I reply trying to make myself stop laughing

“What exactly am I in denial of, oh great all knowing David?” he asks adding the last part sarcastically

I stop laughing and just look at him.

“Hey you just called me David!” I point out

“That’s for telling me I didn’t realize that,” he says with an eye roll as he gets up off the bed, “are you going to tell me what I’m in denial of or do I get to go and finish my morning chores?”

“You’re in denial of your sexuality, and mine as well. Look at me Sebastien I’m the most obviously gay boy you’ll ever meet and yet you can still stand there and call me straight.”

“I can’t argue with that but what makes you think I’m in denial of my own sexuality?” he asks as he crosses his arms.

“It’s obvious your gay as well,” I reply with a smirk as I stand up, “I mean what straight man uses vanilla scented shampoo? Also if you weren’t gay you wouldn’t have kissed me, which you did and which I can prove you liked.”

“And how are you going to do that?” he asks matching my smirk with one of his own

“It’s very simple, I’m going to just do this.” I reply moving my face closer to his with every word before finally smashing our lips together.

Forbidden love: Chapter 7

2006-03-21T01:14:21Z

Story Title: Forbidden love
Chapter Number: 7
Past Chapters: Here
Pairing: D/S
Fandom: Simple Plan
Warnings: Slash
Rating: PG-13 just to be safe
Disclaimer: Au means it didn't happen and since it's against the law to own people I don't own them
Note: Sorry to take to long to update this everytime I tried to something came up.

Forbidden Love: Chapter 7
Point Of View: Seb
I sigh to myself as I walk into his room, I hate waking him up every morning. I mean come on I’m a person not an alarm clock. Not that I would want to be since some people throw their alarm clocks against the wall just for waking them up. As I pass his bed I can’t help but stop and smirk at his sleeping form. I bet he has no idea who it was that kissed him last night.

“Focus, Sebastien.” the voice in my head yells as I walk over to his window and pull the curtains open

“Time to get up Mr. Desrosiers.” I say loud enough to wake him up as I pick the dirty clothes up off the floor.

As I put them in the laundry basket I hear him get up and walk into the bathroom.

“That was abnormally easy.” I think to myself as I start to make his bed

I stand up as I feel hands placed on my hips, quickly I turn around and glare at the person.

“What do you think you’re doing Mr. Desrosiers.” I ask angrily as I continue to glare at him

I’m a servant but that doesn’t give him the right to touch me anytime he wants, especially since he should still think I hate him.

“Drop the ‘I hate you’ act, I know you like me.” he replies with a smirk

“It’s not an act, and what makes you think I like you?” I ask without making a move to get away from him

“Well there’s two things, one being that as we’re standing here you’re not trying to get away from me.” he pauses and smiles at me

“Go on what’s the second thing?” I ask as I roll my eyes at him

“If you didn’t like me you wouldn’t have kissed me last night.” He replies smirking again

“If he smirks at me one more time I swear I’m going to hit him” I think to myself before what he said sinks him.

As it finally sinks in that he knows it was me who kissed I quickly turn the shocked look on my face to one of disgust.

“What are you talking about?” I ask as push his hands off my hips and take two steps away from him

“Last night at my parent’s party you kissed me.” he replies confidently

I just stand there starring at him letting the fake look disgust turn into one of pure dread.

“Wait, how does he know it was me I thought I hid my identity pretty well.” I ask myself in my head.

“You are the only guy I know that always smells like Vanilla.” he explains as if he can read my mind

“You weren’t supposed to know it was me.” I mumble as I sit on his bed and put my head in my hands

“Sebby what’s wrong?” He asks as he sits down beside me

Why doesn't he miss me?

2006-02-14T06:41:53Z

Title: Why doesn’t he miss me?
Pairing: Written as David/Seb but could really be David/Anybody
Rating: G
Disclaimer: don’t know or own.
Summary: After a breakup David writes in his journal about it. Inspired by the song “I miss you so much” by TLC. If you haven’t heard it you should Download it

Dear Journal:

Okay so I don’t write in you a lot but today I’ve got some things I need to write out and hopefully get out of my head completely.

The most important lesson I’ve learned in my life is that you should never fall in love with a close friend or a coworker. You see I found out the hard way that love and friendship and love and work don’t mix. How did I find this out? Well I fell in love with one of my band mates who also happens to be one of my best friends. When we broke up it took away our friendship completely and as for the band it’s changed several things. Like we don’t playfully flirt with each other on stage, and every time we have an interview we both have to sit there and act like we’re best friends. Every interview it gets harder and harder to pretend my heart isn’t broken and that he didn’t cause it.

I never wanted to fall in love with him, Journal, it just kind of happened. When he asked me out I said yes because I kind of liked him and I was lonely. When I first started to fill myself falling for him I decided to let things come naturally. They never did though and it seemed like everything I said and did was wrong. I’ll never forget the looks he gave me at those times, I guess that’s what I get for believing that me letting my feelings show themselves naturally would actually work.

I didn’t realize until too late how naive I had been all along. He didn’t really want to be with me, he just wanted to prove to everyone that he could have me. I’m reminded of that every time I look at him and my mind replays him saying “I never loved you.” before turning and walking out the door and out of my life. I know I should hate him for doing it but I can’t. Instead I hate him for making me fall so deeply in love with him when he knew he didn’t feel the same. Okay so maybe he did at one point but honestly I have no idea if he did or not.

I don’t understand how he can act like nothing happened, like we were never close friends or lovers, when I can’t. Every time he’s near me I feel so weak, it’s like I can’t even breathe. As I watch him joke around with Chuck I can’t help but ask myself two questions. The first being ‘how can he take it so easily?’ and the second being ‘Why doesn’t he miss me.’

It’s time for our sound check now so I can’t write any more right now, I’ll try to take some time out later and write more.

- David

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I might turn this into the beginning of a series of one shots but I haven’t made up my mind yet.

Forbidden love: Chapter 6

2006-01-30T04:39:47Z

Story Title: Forbidden love
Chapter Number: 6
Past Chapters: Here
Pairing: D/S
Fandom: Simple Plan
Warnings: Slash
Rating: PG-13 just to be safe
Disclaimer: Not only do I own them, but this happened and I'm queen of the smurfs.
Dedication: To quitedead, pierreis_sex, meh_ness, hazenst___
Note: Sorry I didn't update this when I said I would. I got distracted making clothes for my Sims and forgot about it :(

Forbidden Love: Chapter 6
Point Of View: David

After awhile the shock finally wears off leaving confusion in it’s place. Deciding to find this Romeo and make him tell me who he is and why he kissed me, and maybe beg him to do it again, I go back inside. Once I’m back inside I look around for him, but I only Pierre.

“Hey Davey.” Pierre says with a grin as I walk over to him

“Have you seen Romeo and Juliet?” I ask ignoring that he called me Davey

“Of course I have.” Pierre replies as Chuck walks over to us

“Who is Romeo?” I ask not able to hide the excitement I’m feeling

“Romeo is a character from a Shakespearean play.” Chuck replies looking at me like I’ve gone crazy

“Not that Romeo! Elizabeth showed up with some guy and they were dressed like Romeo and Juliet.” I explain

“I haven’t seen them.” Pierre tells me

“But you said earlier you did.” I say confused

“You asked if I’d seen Romeo and Juliet, and I said yes. Chuck made us watch it with him remember?” Pierre explains

“Thanks for nothing Pierre.” I mumble feeling disappointed

“I saw them.” Chuck states

“Where?” I ask him feeling somewhat excited again

“They were leaving as I came in.” he replies

-Later That Night-

I sigh as I stare up at my ceiling, it’s midnight and I’m still awake trying to figure out who “Romeo” was. Chuck, Pierre, and I asked everyone that was there and no one know who he was.

Pierre suggested that instead of Romeo I start calling him Cinderella, but I can’t. Cinderella left a clue as to who she was and this Romeo left me nothing. Okay so he did leave me did leave me with the knowledge that his lips are soft and that he smelled like vanilla.

“Am I sure it was Vanilla?” I ask in my head as I sit up in bed

“It was definitely Vanilla. What self respecting male would walk around smelling like vanilla?” A voice in my head asks

My eyes go wide as I realize that I’ve only known one boy who liked to smell like Vanilla. It couldn’t be him… could it? I mean he’d never… and he’s not… or is he? I sigh as I lay back down in the bed. I might as well get some sleep and just confront him about it tomorrow. He already hates me so it’s not me accusing him of kissing me is going to cause me to lose a friend.

Forbidden love: Chapter 5

2006-01-25T03:23:58Z

Story Title: Forbidden love
Chapter Number: 5
Past Chapters: Here
Pairing: D/S
Fandom: Simple Plan
Warnings: Slash
Rating: PG-13 just to be safe
Disclaimer: Not only do I own them, but this happened and I'm queen of the smurfs.
Note: I've got a nice back stock of chapters now so I'll be updating this more.

Forbidden Love: Chapter 5
Point Of View: David

As the guests arrive for my parent’s party I put on my best fake smile as mother makes me great each and everyone of them. The fake smile slips as I hear a shrill female voice yell out “David!”

“Please don’t be Elizabeth.” I think as I slowly turn towards the voice.

I sigh as I see Elizabeth pulling a smaller boy towards me. I can’t help but feel sorry for the boy as they stop in front of me.

“Elizabeth, it’s good to see you.” I lie

“You’re such a bad liar but that’s what I love about you, Davey.” She says as she reaches out and pinches my cheek

Elizabeth is another one of my childhood acquaintances. She always has annoyed me but I put up with her because Sebastien liked her. A pang of guilt strikes me as I think of Sebastien. It’s my fault he hates me.

“So what are you supposed to be?” I ask pulling myself out of my thoughts and dropping the fake smile.

“Obviously I’m Juliet and he’s Romeo” She replies like it was the most obvious thing in the world

“Great costumes, I hope you enjoy the party.” I say sarcastically as I turn to walk away from them

“What are you supposed to be? Straight?” She asked as I walked away from them.

I didn’t reply I just walked on out to my mothers garden area and let the cold air and darkness surround me. Elizabeth and I have never really gotten along, but it got worse once she found out that I’m gay. I sigh as I sit down on one of the marble benches. I should have known my parents would invite her, she’s just like them. All three of then want to “cure” me of my gayness.

“Shouldn’t you be inside?” I hear someone ask softly

I turn towards the voice ready to yell at the person for interrupting my little pity party. How ever that thought leaves me as soon as I see the half mask thing and realize who it is.

“Shouldn’t you be inside with your Juliet?” I ask ignoring his question

“She won’t notice I’m gone,” He replies with a shrug, “Mind if I sit beside you?”

“Go ahead.” I reply nonchalantly

“You never answered my question.” He points out as he sits down

“No one will notice I’m gone.” I reply with a shrug just to mock him

“Do you talk to everyone like that or am I special?” He asks

“You must not know me since you asked that question,” I reply

I tense up as I feel his hand on my leg. It starts to move and I stand up quickly and glare down at him.

“Look I don’t know who put you up to this, but you can just go back to them and tell them you failed.” I say angrily

“You don’t think I’m hot?” He asks

“Yes.. I mean no. It doesn’t matter if I think your hot or not.” I state

I take a step backwards as he stands up and steps towards me smirking. He keeps moving closer and I keep backing up until my back is up against the rough brick of the house. He licks his lips as he stops right in front of me. He leans in and I close my eyes as I feel his hot breath against my ear

“No one put me up to this.” He whispers in my ear before kissing me.

I do nothing but stand there shocked as I watch him turn and walk away.

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So who do you think this "Romeo" is?

Forbidden Love: Chapter 4 Part 2

2005-12-29T07:09:46Z

Story Title: Forbidden love
Chapter Number: 4
Part: 2
Past Chapters: Here
Pairing: Davey/Sebby
Fandom: Simple Plan
Warnings: Slash
Rating: PG-13 just to be safe
Disclaimer: Still don't own them and this still never happened

Forbidden Love: Chapter 4 part 2
Point Of View: Sebastien

I close my eyes tightly trying to fight off the tears that memory always brings with it. That was the last time that our parents allowed us to be friends. From that day on Froggy became my most prized possession, since she was the last thing David ever gave me. I open my eyes and am greeted with the sight of David, immediately I glare at him. I know his parents own this house but what gives him the right to come into my bedroom anytime he wants?

"What are you doing in my room. Dav... I mean Mr. Desrosiers?" I ask not even bothering to hide the contempt in my voice

I almost called him David, just like I used to, good thing I caught myself though. I wouldn't want him to think I'm being friendly when I'm trying my hardest not to be.

"I just wanted to talk." he replies looking down at his shoes

Okay now I feel a little bad I didn't mean to sound that rude or anything, I want to apologize but my mouth has other plans

"Right you wanted to talk to me," I say in disbelief unable to stop myself, "Isn't that what you have Pierre and Chuck for?"

Since he's still looking down at his feet he doesn't see the momentary shock on my face at hearing those words come out of my mouth. What if he really did want to talk to me and be my friend again I just probably blew it.

"That's it keep the anger and hatred in your eyes, don't let him see your true feelings. Better he think you hate him then know the truth" a voice says in my head

"Why do you hate me?" he asks softly as he looks up at me

"I don't hate you, I love you." The voice screams

"Who said I hated you?" I ask ignoring the voice in my head

"I'm not stupid Sebby. I can tell you hate me and I want to know what I did to deserve it." he replies

Uh oh he's getting angry now, that means I've definitely blew… wait did he just call me Sebby? How dare he call me by that name when he thinks I hate him

"Don't you call me that!" I hiss as I intensify my glare hoping it will make him leave

"I'll call you whatever I want. I'm your boss remember." he says with a smirk

Forget calling me Sebby how dare he through it in my face that I'm just a servant here. I stand up and slowly walk towards him letting all my inner anger show on my face. He looks scared, and if I wasn't so mad right now I'd find that amusing. I stop as soon as my face is just inches from his. His lips look so soft I wonder what it'd be like to kiss them.

"Focus you're mad at him, no thinking about kissing him." the voice in my head orders as the urge to kiss him grows stronger

"You know what David. You asked me why I hate you do you still want an answer to that?" I ask

"I hate you because you're an arrogant self-observed person who doesn't give a damn about anyone around him as long as he gets what he wants. The soul goal in your life is to make your parents hate you that's why you wear the makeup that's why you say you're gay. I bet if a guy ever hit on you you‘d freak out," I rant secretly enjoying as the fear grows in his eyes, "Get the hell out of my room"

Still looking scared he backs out of my room and runs towards the stairs to get to his own room without shutting my door. I slam my door before throwing myself back on my bed and letting all my emotions out though silent tears as I replay the whole conversation in my head. I smirk as I sit up and wipe the tears away from my eyes. I think I'll go to the party tonight and put David's sexuality to the test.

Forbidden love: Chapter 4 Part 1

2005-12-29T06:06:42Z

Story Title: Forbidden love
Chapter Number: 4
Past Chapters: Here
Pairing: Davey/Sebby
Fandom: Simple Plan
Warnings: Slash
Rating: PG-13 just to be safe
Disclaimer: Still don't own them and this still never happened
Note: this chapter is in two parts. One written in David's point of view and one written in Sebastien's. Some things in this part will be repeated in the second part to show how seb feels

Forbidden Love: Chapter 4 part 1
Point Of View: David

The ride home from the country club was silent, I could tell Chuck was worried about me but I didn’t really care. I haven’t spoken a word or him or Pierre since Pat called and told Pierre what he was able to find out from Seb. Surely Pat exaggerated a bit, Seb can’t hate me we used to be so close. I sigh as I feel the car stop signifying that we’ve arrived at my house and it’s time for me to get out. I don’t though I just sit there starring out the window at the house. As I reach for the door handle Chuck turns around and looks at me sympathetically.

“Talk to him, Dave. It might not be too late to fix things.”

“Thanks for the ride” I mumble as I get out of the car and walk towards the front door.

Once I’m inside the house I stop at the bottom the stairs and bite my lip as I try to decide if I want to talk to Sebastien right now or wait until later.

“If you don’t do this now you’ll never do it.” I whisper to myself as I walk towards the kitchen hoping the he will be helping his mother.

When I walk into the kitchen I am greeted by a warm smile from Mrs. Lefebvre but Sebastien’s no where insight.

“Mrs. Lefebvre, do you know where Sebastien is? I wanted to talk to him about something” I ask trying to keep my voice level and respectful

“He’s in his room, he might be asleep though.” she replies as he turns back to the stove

“Thank you.” is all I say as I walk out of the kitchen and towards Sebastien’s room.

I hesitate once I reach his door what if he is sleeping? He’s not very friendly when you wake him up. What if he’s awake what will I say to him? After taking a deep breath I knock softly on the door . Thinking I hear him say come in I open the door and walk into his room. I can’t help but smile at the sight before me, Sebastien laying on his bed hugging the stuffed pig I gave him for his twelfth birthday.

He opens his eyes and glares as soon as he realizes it’s me.

“What are you doing in my room. Dav…. I mean Mr. Desrosiers?” He asks not even attempting to hide the Disclaimer: Still don't own them and this still never happened

Forbidden Love: Chapter 4 part 1
Point Of View: David

The ride home from the country club was silent, I could tell Chuck was worried about me but I didn't really care. I haven't spoken a word or him or Pierre since Pat called and told Pierre what he was able to find out from Seb. Surely Pat exaggerated a bit, Seb can't hate me we used to be so close. I sigh as I feel the car stop signifying that we've arrived at my house and it's time for me to get out. I don't though I just sit there starring out the window at the house. As I reach for the door handle Chuck turns around and looks at me sympathetically.

"Talk to him, Dave. It might not be too late to fix things."

"Thanks for the ride" I mumble as I get out of the car and walk towards the front door.

Once I'm inside the house I stop at the bottom the stairs and bite my lip as I try to decide if I want to talk to Sebastien right now or wait until later.

"If you don't do this now you'll never do it." I whisper to myself as I walk towards the kitchen hoping the he will be helping his mother.

When I walk into the kitchen I am greeted by a warm smile from Mrs. Lefebvre but Sebastien's no where insight.

"Mrs. Lefebvre, do you know where Sebastien is? I wanted to talk to him about something" I ask trying to keep my voice level and respectful

"He's in his room, he might be asleep though." she replies as he turns back to the stove

"Thank you." is all I say as I walk out of the kitchen and towards Sebastien's room.

I hesitate once I reach his door what if he is sleeping? He's not very friendly when you wake him up. What if he's awake what will I say to him? After taking a deep breath I knock softly on the door . Thinking I hear him say come in I open the door and walk into his room. I can't help but smile at the sight before me, Sebastien laying on his bed hugging the stuffed pig I gave him for his twelfth birthday.

He opens his eyes and glares as soon as he realizes it's me.

"What are you doing in my room. Dav... I mean Mr. Desrosiers?" He asks not even attempting to hide the contempt in his voice.

"I just wanted to talk." I reply looking down at my shoes

"Right you wanted to talk to me," He says in disbelief, "Isn't that what you have Pierre and Chuck for?"

I keep my gaze on my shoes to keep him from seeing the hurt on my face. So Patrick wasn't exaggerating, Seb does really hate me. After a couple minutes I look back up at him the blue eyes once filled with kindess are still locked on me showing nothing put pure hatred.

"Why do you hate me?" I ask softly

"Who said I hate you?" He asks instead of answering my question

"I'm not stupid Sebby. I can tell you hate me and I want to know what I did to deserve it." I reply as I start to get angry

"Don't you call me that!" He hisses as his glare intensifies

"I'll call you whatever I want. I'm your boss remember." I say with a smirk

I know I crossed the line with that comment but right now I don't really care. My eyes widen as he stands up and walks towards me, his face filled with anger and a little hurt.

fanfic100 Claim Sebastien Lefebvre

2005-12-24T19:19:22Z

001.	Beginnings.	002.	Middles.	003.	Ends.	004.	Insides.	005.	Outsides.
006.	Hours.	007.	Days.	008.	Weeks.	009.	Months.	010.	Years.
011.	Red.	012.	Orange.	013.	Yellow.	014.	Green.	015.	Blue.
016.	Purple.	017.	Brown.	018.	Black.	019.	White.	020.	Colourless.
021.	Friends.	022.	Enemies.	023.	Lovers.	024.	Family.	025.	Strangers.
026.	Teammates.	027.	Parents.	028.	Children.	029.	Birth.	030.	Death.
031.	Sunrise.	032.	Sunset.	033.	Too Much.	034.	Not Enough.	035.	Sixth Sense.
036.	Smell.	037.	Sound.	038.	Touch.	039.	Taste.	040.	Sight.
041.	Shapes.	042.	Triangle.	043.	Square.	044.	Circle.	045.	Moon.
046.	Star.	047.	Heart.	048.	Diamond.	049.	Club.	050.	Spade.
051.	Water.	052.	Fire.	053.	Earth.	054.	Air.	055.	Spirit.
056.	Breakfast.	057.	Lunch.	058.	Dinner.	059.	Food.	060.	Drink.
061.	Winter.	062.	Spring.	063.	Summer.	064.	Fall.	065.	Passing.
066.	Rain.	067.	Snow.	068.	Lightening.	069.	Thunder.	070.	Storm.
071.	Broken.	072.	Fixed.	073.	Light.	074.	Dark.	075.	Shade.
076.	Who?	077.	What?	078.	Where?	079.	When?	080.	Why?
081.	How?	082.	If.	083.	And.	084.	He.	085.	She.
086.	Choices.	087.	Life.	088.	School.	089.	Work.	090.	Home.
091.	Birthday.	092.	Christmas.	093.	Thanksgiving.	094.	Independence.	095.	New Year.
096.	Writer‘s Choice.	097.	Writer‘s Choice.	098.	Writer‘s Choice.	099.	Writer‘s Choice.	100.	Writer‘s Choice.

Hey Santa

2005-12-15T06:20:23Z

Title: Hey Santa
Author: Micki (maitland)
Pairing: Chuck/Pierre
Warnings: Slash
Rating: pg-13 just to be safe
Author's Notes: This is a one-shot based on the song “Hey Santa” by Wilson Phillips. This is my first and probably last attempt to write a Pie/Chuck story.
DISCLAIMER: I don’t know or own them and this never happened

Hey Santa
Hey Santa (Santa)
I wish with all my might
Hey Santa (Santa)
Bring my baby home tonight

Tonight is Christmas Eve, and thanks to a snow storm the city is covered in snow. Most people are asleep by now, but I’m not I’m still sitting here in candle light waiting for my, sometimes idiotic, boyfriend Pierre to show up.

“I can’t believe I believed him.” I mutter to myself as I stare at the flame on the candle sitting closest to me.

This was supposed to be our first Christmas together since we broke up two years ago. Things were supposed to be different this year but I guess people can’t really change how they are or at least Pierre can’t. Right now he’s probably at some hotel somewhere fucking some random groupie, while I sit here cold and lonely waiting on him.

I sigh as I turn my head away from the candle and look at the fireplace to make sure it’s still lit, since it’s not warming me up any. I can’t help but frown as I realize that it in fact is still lit and putting out heat. I know it won’t keep me warm though, the only thing that can do that is my boyfriend. Who could have gotten stuck in a snow drift somewhere on his way to come home and confess his undying love for me.

I can’t help but roll my eyes at that thought. I might be completely in love with him but I’m not stupid. The whole fucking a random groupie thing sounds more like Pierre then even trying to come home to confess he loves me. You see in all the years Pierre and I have been dating, it’s been an on-again off-again relationship since we were thirteen, he’s never told me he loves me once. I’ve told him I love him each time he’s came crawling back to me needing to feel needed.

“That’s nice Chuck, could you be quiet though I’m trying to sleep.” Is the reply I’d always get from him

No one really understands why I keep taking Pierre back when I know he’s just going to end up breaking my heart with his cheating and lies. To be honest I wasn’t going to take him back this last time but he looked so sincere when he told me that he’d changed, and was ready to be fully monogamous and devoted to me like I was to him.

I shake my head as I pull myself out of my thoughts and look at the presents that are under the tree waiting to be opened. There is nothing under there that will mean anything to me right now. The tears start to fall from my eyes as I hear the clock strike midnight. I get up and go around blowing out the candle’s I’d lit, as I wipe the tears out of my eyes. I’m finished with being the one to cry, with being a fool, with waiting up for him and most importantly I’m finished with Pierre Bouvier.

I look over to make sure the fire in the fireplace has gone out then I walk toward the stairs wanting to just to go to bed. As I get to the bottom of the stairs I hear a knock at the door. I stand there staring at the door wondering if I should answer it or just go upstairs to bed.

“All right I’m coming hold your horses.” I say rolling my eyes as I walk towards the door.

I open the door half expecting to see one of my neighbors too drunk to realize this isn’t their home. But instead what do I see? I see ~~the lying cheating scumbag also known as~~ my boyfriend, Pierre. I just glare at him before turning and walking away from the door letting him come in if he wanted to.

“I know your mad at me Chuck, and I’m really sorry. I tried to get here sooner but the roads are really bad.” he explains as he walks into the house and shuts the door.

“Oh come on Pierre…”

“I know you don’t believe that and I can honestly say if I was in your shoes I wouldn’t believe it either. It is the truth though,” he says cutting me off as he moves closer to me, “Before you tell me to get the hell out of your house and your life I just want you to know one thing. I love you.”

I stand there staring at him completely surprised. Did Pierre just say he loves me? Maybe he was telling the truth about the roads since it’s been snowing pretty bad lately. I can’t help but smile as I jump into his arms and kiss him, we were under the mistletoe after all.

“Merry Christmas Baby.” he says as he wraps his arms around me

“Merry Christmas,” I repeat as I look into his eyes, “Let’s go to bed.”

As he carries me up the stairs I can realize that people can really change if given the chance., and for the first time all night I feel warm.

Last Kiss

2005-12-12T19:21:45Z

Title: Last Kiss
Author: Maitland
Pairing: David Desrosiers/Sebastien Lefebvre
Prompt: 030. Death
Rating: G
Warnings: Death
Author's Notes: This is a one-shot based on the song “Last Kiss” by Pearl Jam. Written for rpf100
DISCLAIMER: I don’t know or own Seb or David. I also don’t own the song that inspired this

Well now ~~she’s~~ he’s gone. even though I hold ~~her~~ him tight.

I lost my love, my life, that night

“Should we be talking about this here? What if David over hears us?” I heard Chuck ask I as pressed by back harder up against the wall I was hiding behind.

I’d came down from my room to get something to eat but abandoned the thought of getting some food when I heard the hushed voices coming from the kitchen

“He’s up in his room, and you know that nothing will make him come down today.” I heard Pierre reply somberly

“It doesn’t feel right for us to talk about this today. I mean one year ago today we were consoling David after we found out that Sebastien had…” I heard one of them say with their voice filled with sadness.

As the silent tears started to fall from my eyes I couldn’t help but think that it seemed longer then a year since I had last seen my sweet Sebastien alive. I was pulled from my memories of Sebastien as I hear Chuck speak up again.

“I miss Sebastien as much as the rest of you do, but he’s gone and nothing we do can bring him back,” He said pausing to take a deep breath before he added “Besides I know he wouldn’t wanted the band to die with him. So we need to start auditions.”

Auditions? Their not going to try to replace Seb are they? Don’t they know that no matter how hard they look they will never find another guitarist good enough to take his place? With those questions buzzing around in my head I stepped into the kitchen and glared at the three people who are not only my closest friends but were Sebastien’s as well. My glares were met by surprised looks which quickly turned into guilty ones as they realized that I had to have heard what they were saying.

“How could you even think of replacing him?” I demand to know as I look at each one of them not bothering to wipe away my tears, “Did Seb mean so little to you that you can allow some stranger to come in and take his place?”

“David you know….” I heard Chuck start to say as I turned and ran from the kitchen and back to my room.

Once I was in the safety of my own room I threw myself on the bed and let my tears to continue falling from my eyes. My body tensed up as I heard the sound of the door opening followed by someone walking across the floor towards my bed. I didn’t even look turn my head and look at the person when I felt the mattress shift under me as they sat down on my bed.

“David, I’m sorry about what you heard downstairs. We all know no one can replace Seb and we miss him as much as you do,” Jeff said then paused to search for the right words, “We know what you’re going through David.”

I sat up and glared at him as I wiped the tears away that were running down my cheeks.

“No Jeff, you don’t know what I’m going through. It’s my fault Seb is dead, if I’d been able to stop the car Seb would still be alive and they wouldn’t be talking about replacing him.”

“It’s not…” Jeff started to say before I cut him off

“It is.“ I said as I looked down at my hands and took a deep breath.

With out looking up at him I started to tell the story about that night.

“We’d just gotten back home from a European tour, and although we were both exhausted Sebastien and I decided to go out on a date. As we drove to the restaurant he babbled on about how amazing every single concert had been, and how he couldn’t want to go back there next time we toured. Just as he was telling me for the hundredth time how much he loved that our voiced mixed together so well I noticed that a car was stalled directory in front of us.” I paused and looked up at my friend before continuing

“I kept pushing the break but it didn’t work, so I swerved to the right. I didn’t realize though that there was a tree right there. I heard him scream as we hit the tree and then the next thing I remember is waking up laying in the grass. I panicked when I realized Seb wasn’t beside me, I started looking around for him. There were people gathered around me but none of them were him. Just as I was about to give up I saw him on the ground not far from where I was.” I felt the tears forming in my eyes again as I relived that night in knew he was dying. He opened his eyes and looked at me before saying ‘Baby, I’m scared please hold me.’ so I carefully lifted him into my lap and held him. As he took his last breath I kissed him for the last time and told him how much I loved him.”

After I finished my story Jeff wrapped his arms around me in a tight friendly hug. We both sat there like that for a couple minutes just crying as he tried to comfort me.

“Do you know what makes me get up everyday and not take my life?” I asked in a whisper through my tears

“Everyday I tell myself that if I’m really good, I’ll see my Sebby again when I die.” I said not even bothering to wait for his answer.

Forbidden Love: Chapter 3

2005-11-16T05:43:23Z

Story Title: Forbidden love
Chapter Number: 3
Past Chapters: Here
Pairing: Davey/Sebby, Mentioned: Chuck/Jeff, Pie/Pat
Fandom: Simple Plan
Rating: PG just to be safe
Disclaimer: Still don't own them and this still never happened

Forbidden Love: Chapter 3
Flash Back in Seb‘s Point Of View

“We make a good team” He says as he hands me one of the popsicles he took from the freezer while I distracted my mother

I just nod in agreement happily as I unwrap my popsicle. This is how David and I have spent our summer days since we were 7 and 8. One of us would distract my mother while the other one went into the kitchen and got the popsicles. We’d then sit in the tree house and eat them. In the 4 years that we’ve been doing this we haven’t gotten caught .

“Does she have any idea we do this?” He asks before licking his popsicle

“If she does she hasn’t said anything.” I reply before I take a bite out of mine.

He just nods and we sit in complete silence as we eat our popsicles. After he finishes his popsicle he turns and smiles at me as he throws the stick into the trash can

“Why are you smiling at me like that?” I ask as I throw my stick away as well

“Tomorrow’s your birthday are you excited?” He asks ignoring my question completely

“Not really.” I reply as I lean back against the wall

“Why not?” He asked

“It just means that we’re one more year closer to not being friends anymore.” I reply

He frowns at me before getting up and walking over to the tree house cabinet and pulling out a object that was covered in shiny blue wrapping paper.

“We’ll always be friends Sebby I promise.” He states with a smile as walks over to me and sits down in front of me putting the wrapped object into my lap.

“What’s this?” I ask looking down at the shiny blue object in my lap.

“It’s your birthday present. I can’t wait until tomorrow so I decided to give it to you today,” He says, “Go ahead and open it.”

“Will it bite me?” I ask my friend as I look up at him

“No.” He replies with a laugh.

As I unwrap the present I’m hoping that he’s telling the truth about it not biting me. For my 6th birthday he gave me a live snapping turtle. It latched onto my finger right after I opened the box. I still haven’t forgotten about that and every year I make sure that he doesn’t either.

“Hurry up!” He says impatiently

I shake my head as I open the box that the blue paper covered. I can’t help but smile when I look down and see a stuffed pig.

“Do you like it? I know you love animals and I thought you’d like it.” He babbles nervously

“I love it,” I reply as I take the pig out of the box and look at it, “I’ll call her Piggy.”

“Piggy,” He repeats laughing, “You never were creative with names Sebastien.”

“Would you rather I give her a name like Froggy?” I ask as I glare at my laughing friend

“It’d be more creative then Piggy.” He replies as I start to laugh with him

That night when I went to bed I made sure that Froggy the pig was in bed with me.

Sebastien/David claim rpf100

2005-11-12T02:47:56Z

001.	Beginnings.	002.	Middles.	003.	Ends.	004.	Insides.	005.	Outsides.
006.	Hours.	007.	Days.	008.	Weeks.	009.	Months.	010.	Years.
011.	Red.	012.	Orange.	013.	Yellow.	014.	Green.	015.	Blue.
016.	Purple.	017.	Brown.	018.	Black.	019.	White.	020.	Colourless.
021.	Friends.	022.	Enemies.	023.	Lovers.	024.	Emptiness.	025.	Strangers.
026.	Blood.	027.	Crying.	028.	Voice.	029.	Birth.	030.	Death.
031.	Sunrise.	032.	Sunset.	033.	Too Much.	034.	Not Enough.	035.	Forgiving.
036.	Smell.	037.	Sound.	038.	Touch.	039.	Taste.	040.	Sight.
041.	Fight.	042.	Triangle.	043.	Square.	044.	Circle.	045.	Moon.
046.	Star.	047.	Heart.	048.	Warm.	049.	Cold.	050.	Hate.
051.	Water.	052.	Fire.	053.	Earth.	054.	Air.	055.	Spirit.
056.	Breakfast.	057.	Lunch.	058.	Dinner.	059.	Food.	060.	Drink.
061.	Winter.	062.	Spring.	063.	Summer.	064.	Fall.	065.	Passing.
066.	Rain.	067.	Snow.	068.	Lightening.	069.	Thunder.	070.	Storm.
071.	Broken.	072.	Fixed.	073.	Light.	074.	Dark.	075.	Shade.
076.	Who?	077.	What?	078.	Where?	079.	When?	080.	Why?
081.	How?	082.	If.	083.	And.	084.	He.	085.	She.
086.	Choices.	087.	Life.	088.	School.	089.	Work.	090.	Home.
091.	Birthday.	092.	Christmas.	093.	Hurt.	094.	Comfort.	095.	Pain.
096.	Writer‘s Choice.	097.	Writer‘s Choice.	098.	Writer‘s Choice.	099.	Writer‘s Choice.	100.	Writer‘s Choice.

Forbidden Love: Chapter 2

2005-11-05T04:48:01Z

Story Title: Forbidden love
Chapter Number: 2
Past Chapters: Here
Pairing: Davey/Sebby, Mentioned: Chuck/Jeff, Pie/Pat
Fandom: Simple Plan
Rating: PG just to be safe
Disclaimer: Still don't own them and this still never happened
Note: Next Chapter will be a flash back to Younger David/Seb

Forbidden Love: Chapter 2
Sebastien's Point Of View

I groan to myself when I hear Pat and Jeff talking to my mother. I knew they were going to come over to help us prepare for the Halloween parry, but I didn’t think they’d be over so soon. It’s not that I hate them or anything. Pat just gets on my nervous with his constant talking about how great Pierre is. In fact if I wasn’t on a ladder hanging up Halloween decorations I’d probably hide from him. But sadly I am on a ladder and they are walking into the room

“Hey Sebby!” Pat says happily as he looks up at me

“It’s Sebastien,” I correct letting my irritation show in my voice as I climb down the ladder

We spend the next hour and a half hanging up the rest of the decorations in complete silence. As I finish putting the fake cobwebs on the stair case railings Jeff decides to break the silence.

“Are you going to be working at this party?” Jeff asks me

“I’m not allowed to work parties.” I remind my friend as I look around at the work we’ve done

“Are you going to go to the party then?” Pat asks as he finishes putting fake spiders in the cobwebs

“Of course I am I wouldn‘t miss this party for anything in the world” I reply sarcastically as I roll my eyes

“It was just simple question no need to be so sarcastic,” Pat says defensively, “Besides what do you have against Halloween parties anyway?”

“I don’t have anything against Halloween parties.” I inform him

“Then why aren’t you going to go?” Jeff asks

“Well for one I’m sure that I won’t be wanted there.” I answer turning to look at my friend

“I’m sure David would want his best friend to be there.” Pat says

He backs up slightly as I quickly turn towards him glaring

“I’m not David’s best friend. We’re not even friends anymore,” I say angrily, “And besides it’s not like David the world revolves around me Desrosiers would even care if I was there or not.”

I can feel the tears starting to form in my eyes as I look back and forth at the shocked faces of my companions. I don’t mind that I just showed them my hidden anger towards David but they will not see me cry over him.

“Whoa, Seb. Where’d all that anger come from?” Jeff asked cautiously

“I guess I have a lot of anger still in me about being betrayed by someone I considered to be my best friend.” I reply with a shrug

“What do you mean betrayed?” Pat asks me curiously

I look at him and sigh softly to myself. Can I really answer that with out giving too much of what’s in my heart away? Of course I don’t really have to tell him exactly what I meant. It might even be good for me to reveal some of my deeply hidden pain to these two, it couldn’t hurt as long as I choose my words carefully. As I continue to wonder if I should tell them or not I can’t keep my mind from wondering back to my memories of a time when David and I were still close. I shake my head to get the memories to go away.

“I don’t want to talk about it right now.” I reply

I can tell Pat is about to try to pressure me into telling him what I meant when Jeff speaks up.

“Looks like were done with the decorating, which means Pat and I had better go. We’ve both got important things to do before tonight.” he says as he grabs a hold of Pat’s arm and starts to pull him towards the door.

“See you later Seb.” He says as he looks back at me.

I can’t help but smile as I watch them leave knowing that they were only leaving so Pat couldn’t pry into my tortured soul. After their gone I walk into the kitchen where I know my mother is baking various snacks for tonight’s party.

“All the decorations are hung up. Do you need any help with baking anything?” I ask being the good son that I am

“No dear I can handle,” She replies as she glances at me, “You look tired, why don’t you go lay down and get some sleep?”

I smile and kiss her cheek quickly before turning and walking towards my room in the servants wing. Once I’m in the safety of my room I throw myself down on my bed, but I don’t sleep. Instead I let my memories of a time when I was actually happy fill my mind.

Just Like Us

2005-11-01T03:48:46Z

Title: Just Like Us
Author: Micki (Maitland)
Pairing: David/Seb
Rating: G
Disclaimer: Don't own
Summery: David and Seb discover that they have something in common with Penguins.

Sorry if it sucks, now I'm off to write more of Forbidden Love

Written for Operation: Penguin. It contains no Madagascar penguins since I've yet to see that movie.

It's fitting that my mood theme is the penguin one

Just Like Us

David smiled as he snuck up behind his boyfriend and wrapped his arms around him. He couldn’t help but laugh as the younger man jumped out of surprise.

“Babe, you can’t sneak up on me like that.” his boyfriend reminded him as he leaned back against him

“Guess what Sebby.” David said happily ignoring what Sebastien had just said completely

“What Davey?” Seb asked not able to resist the happy childish tone of his boyfriends voice

“Remember that book about Penguins I bought last time we went to the zoo?” David asked

“I think so.” Seb replied wondering what the penguin book had to do with anything.

“Well I finally got around to reading it and you’ll never guess what it said a bout male penguin couples.” David said un-able to keep the excitement he was feeling out of his voice.

“Are you going to tell me or are you actually going to make me ask?” Seb asked as he turned around and faced his boyfriend.

“Well it said that male penguin couples have been documented to mate for life, build nests together, and use a stone to replace sitting on an egg in the nest. And that in 2004, the Central Park Zoo in the United States replaced one male couple's stone with a fertile egg which the couple then raised as their own offspring,” he replied with a grin, “Isn’t that so cool Sebby?”

“Yes it is, very cool Davey.” Seb replied as he leaned in and kissed his boyfriend

“You know what makes it even cooler?” David asked looking into Sebastien’s eyes

“No but please tell me.” Seb replied as he felt himself starting to share in David’s excitement about the penguins.

“Their just like us.” David whispered as he leaned in and kissed Seb’s forehead.

“Did you hear that Desiree, your daddies are just like penguins.” Seb said quietly to the now sleeping infant in his arms

Forbidden Love: Chapter 1

2005-10-24T04:18:00Z

Story Title: Forbidden love
Chapter Number: 1
Past Chapters: Here
Pairing: Davey/Sebby, Mentioned: Chuck/Jeff, Pie/Pat
Fandom: Simple Plan
Rating: PG just to be safe
Disclaimer: Still don't own them and this still never happened
Dedication: to alienantidote, bloodsexabooze, pierreis_sex, rocknrollchick4, frostbittnballs, lovestephenking, trashyglamourx and anyone else who reviewed the Prologue, you're the only reason's this chapter got written.

Note: Next chapter will feature Seb, Pat and Jeff

Forbidden Love: Chapter 1

As I sit at the table staring into my breakfast I sigh. The moment Seb said that my mother wanted to meet me here I should have known she wouldn’t show up and I’d be stuck here. Just as I’m cursing my inability to drive, you accidentally drive your car into the pool one time and they refuse to let you drive ever again, my two good friends Pierre and Chuck walk over to me.

“Hey Davey.” Pierre says with that stupid grin of his

“Hey guys.” I mumble as I roll my eyes at Pierre.

“Aw, little Davey is grumpy he must have just woken up from his nap.” Pierre says like he’s talking to a child.

“Pierre stop,” Chuck says before hitting Pierre up side the head before adding with concern in his voice, “What’s wrong David?”

“Same thing that’s always wrong with me.” I reply dryly

“Your mother bailed on another promise and you still haven’t told Sebastien how you feel.” Chuck states

“Thank you for pointing that out Captain Obvious.” Pierre says sarcastically.

“Why am I friends with you two again?” I ask with a sigh as Chuck rolls his eyes at Pierre

“Look David, you’re not going to be happy until he knows so I say when you get home you call him up to your room and once he does you throw him on your bed and…” Pierre says ignoring what I had just said

“Pie, come on you know that‘s a bad idea. Just because it worked on Patrick doesn‘t mean it will work on anyone else.” Chuck says cutting Pierre off before he can finish.

“Well what do you think he should do?” Pierre asks slightly mad about being interrupted.

Both Pierre and I sit there in silence as Chuck thinks about it.

“I’ve got it!” Chuck exclaims just as I’m pondering getting new friends.

“Your parents are still having that Halloween party, right?” He says looking right at me.

“Yeah, but what does that have to do with my problem?” I densely ask my friend

“David focus here,” he says with a sigh, “Sebastien is going to be there…”

“No he‘s not, his mother makes him stay in his room during parties” I inform my friend with a frown

“Get him a costume and talk him into going. You can confess your undying love to him from behind the safety of a mask and costume.” Pierre says suddenly

“That’s actually a good idea.” Chuck agrees

“Right, I’m going to go up to my straight childhood friend and say ‘Hi Sebby, I’m in love with you.’ so he can hate me even more then he already does” I say with a sigh

Chuck frowns then looks at Pierre with a slight smile.

“Sebby?” Pierre repeats with a smirk

“Hey Pie, isn’t Pat going to be helping them get everything ready for the party?” He inquires

“Yeah, isn’t Jeff also going to help?” Pierre replies before figuring it out

“Hey we can get Pat and Jeff to find out if Sebby, shares Davey’s feelings. That way he‘ll know if he has a chance.” he adds emphasizing the words Sebby and Davey

“I hate you Pie, but that is a good idea. Do you think they can do it without being too obvious that their asking about me.” I ask my two friends

Chuck and Pierre look at each other before they both nod.

“I’ll make sure Jeff knows not to tell or let Pat spill the beans about your secret love.” Chuck reassures me

Forbidden love

2005-10-18T02:28:01Z

Title: Forbidden love
Pairing: Davey/Sebby
Fandom: Simple Plan
Rating: PG just to be safe
Disclaimer: Don't own them, the song the inspired this nor am I saying their gay.
Inspiration: English translation of a song called "Amor Prohidio" by Selena. It does not follow the song though.
Lyrics: English/Spanish

Forbidden Love: Prologue

We’re sitting in my mother’s rose garden, I’m looking into his amazing blue eyes as I confess my undying love for him. He smiles and leans forward to kiss me. Just as our lips are about to touch he says “Time to get up Mr. Desrosiers”

I groan as my eyes open and I sit up on the bed realizing it was just a dream. With a disappointed sigh I get up off the bed and walk into my bathroom not saying anything to the blue eyed angel who woke me up. Deciding to skip my morning shower I brush my teeth, before carefully applying my eyeliner. After I finish I smile at my reflection in the mirror. You see I wear the eyeliner just because it pisses off my parents.

Once I’m satisfied that it will do just that I walk back out into my room wearing only the boxers I’d slept in the night before. I pause as I see him bent over my bed, I know he’s just making it but a guy can dream can’t he. I lick my lips as I start to walk slowly towards him. I don’t know what I’ll do once I reach him, but I can’t stop myself.

“Sebastien, why don’t you call me David? You’re only a year younger then me.” I ask breaking the odd silence in the room.

He jumps slightly obviously startled by my voice. I can’t really blame the poor kid he was probably expecting me to still be in the shower.

“It is not proper to call one’s employer by his first name.” Sebastien replies as he finishes making my bed.

“I’m not your employer.” I remind him as I stop right behind him.

I can’t help but smirk as he tenses up as soon as he realizes I’m standing right behind him.

“Your mother wants you to meet her at the country club for a late breakfast.” he informs me before turning and walking out of my room.

As soon as the door closes I walk to my closet and randomly pull out a pair of blue jeans and a shirt. As I get dressed my mind wonders to Sebastien. Since both of his parents our servants here we’ve grown up together and were even playmates when we were little. Now I can’t even have a conversation without one of our mother’s glaring at us. My mother tells me that it’s not proper for me to converse with the hired help and his mother tells him it’s not proper for him to talk to his employer. All of this is horrible for me since I’ve recently realized that I’m gay and in love with him

I groan as I remember that I’m supposed to be meeting mom at the country club for a late breakfast which means that I’ll have to pretend to be straight. As I walk down the stairs wondering if my friend Pierre will be there, I can’t help but notice Sebastien is no where to be seen. I shrug as I walk out the door and get into the waiting car. I must have spooked him this morning, if I did I’m sure Pierre can help me come up with a way to make it up to him.

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I don't know how many chapters this will be but I do have a question for my reviewers.

Since I want to incorporate the others into this story as well. Two of them will be David’s rich friends and the other two will be the boyfriends/servants of the said friend.

So since Pierre is already mentioned as a friend who should be the other one (Chuck, Pat, or Jeff) also who of those four should be together? Also should I even continue this?

I’m asking my reviewers because honestly I can’t make my mind up about either question.

Untitled

2005-10-18T02:03:48Z

Title: Untitled
Pairing: Billy/David
Fandom: Good Charlotte/Simple Plan
Warnings: Death, Boy love
Rating: PG just to be safe
Disclaimer: Short pointless fic inspired by the song “Untitled” by Simple Plan. Don’t own the bands or the song, also I’m not trying to say that Billy, David or anyone else is gay. I might write a sequel this from another one of the guy’s point of view but I’m not sure. Reviews will help me decide

-Billy’s P.O.V-

“I open my eyes I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light I can’t remember how I can’t remember why I’m lying here tonight And I can’t stand the pain And I can’t make it go away No, I can’t stand the pain”

Laying on the cold hard ground I heard the sirens and people around me sobbing and even a few were screaming his name. I knew I recognized some of the voices but I was in too much pain to figure out who they were. I opened my eyes hoping to be able to see the face of my boyfriend in my final moments but all I could see was a white light that caused pure terror to race through my body. I didn’t want to die yet, I had so much left to do with my life.

"How could this happen to me? I made my mistakes Got no where to run The night goes on as I’m fading away I’m sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me?"

How could this happen to me? I’m supposed to die yet, my band just finished up our new album. I knew as I laid there with the rain hitting my face, and the EMT’s trying to get me to talk, that I would never perform with my beloved friends again. Never touch my guitar again, never meet another fan, never read another letter telling me just how much our music means to them, never hear him whisper into my ear in French at night how much he loves me. Hell I’ll never get to tell him how sorry I am.

“Everybody screaming I try to make a sound but no one hear’s me I’m slipping of the edge I’m hanging by a thread I wanna start this over again So I try to hold on to a time when nothing mattered and I’m can’t explain what happened and I can’t erase the things that I’ve done No I can’t”

I hear his voice and know he’s probably standing over me now. I hear him telling me to hold on and that everything will be okay. We both know it’s a lie, and that pretty soon I’ll be dead. I squeeze his hand lightly as I hear his sobs and with my last breath I try to tell him I love him, but the only word he can hear is his name being whispered. As I let go and allow the white light to surround me. I look down as I ascend into the night and I see him crying next to my lifeless and broken body. I wish I could wrap my arms around him and tell him not to cry that he’ll see me again. Yes I will see my beloved David again and he will know that my love for him was far stronger then my body was. As I go higher up into the light I feel at peace with everything finally.

“How could this happen to me? I made my mistakes Got no where to run The night goes on as I’m fading away I’m sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me?”

-Pierre’s point of view-
It was 2:00 when I was awakened by the phone. I groaned and pulled the pillow over my head deciding just to let the answering machine get it. I was almost back asleep when I heard him say though his sobs into my answering machine
“Pierre, I need you. Billy is dead.”

Poem: Winter Depression

2005-10-18T01:52:06Z

On my desk there is a rose
The rose is dead like my dreams
Sometimes I sit looking out the window at the dull snow
and I think of all the things I don’t know
Sometimes I wish I’d just die
I know my mom would cry
Winter depression has taken me over
Oh how I long for spring
The day’s when I’m so happy
Mom comes into my room with a Rose
As she sits it on my desk she kissed the top of my head
And say’s I love you
And slowly the snow in my soul melts away into Spring